Utter Shit

So a blog I read linked to a horoscope (thank you, Planner).

This was mine for this week:

Everyone wants an extra piece of you these days, and they don’t necessarily care about how it will affect you. So beware of emotional manipulation, subliminal seduction, and the temptation to believe in impossible promises. To make matters more extreme, I suspect you may be secretly pleased that everyone wants an extra piece of you — and might be tempted to conspire in your own dismantling. Let me propose a compromise. How about letting three trustworthy people — no more — take an extra piece of you? And be very certain that they have enough self-control to know when to stop taking.

Holy shit.

The thing with the old friend has blown up.  I got  weird, only because I had no time to think.  He pulled back which sends me into a tailspin.

I take the time to write it all out and come up with a  paragraph that answers all my questions.  I  feel so much better, because the decision is being made by me.

And then he tells me the gf is moving her hubby back in and that he is in love with her.  Kicked me in the gut.  Seeing him say he is in love with her hurt more than I had anticipated.  Fuck.

Overall his comments are very misleading.  He “likes me more than ever before” but he does not want to be “another guy with his hands all over your ass”.  Refer to impossible promises/emotional manipulation/care about how it will effect you above, please.  I need to realize he will take the comfort, but he really is not here to see me…he is here to forget her.

Holy fuck, I hate it when I can sum up all my angst in ONE LINE.  Why does it mess with me so much when it only takes 24 words??!!

So…his sunglasses are in my car and we were going to wait to meet up to return them…but fuck it.  I want to overnight them  and be free of the drama for awhile.  No more links.  No more reason to see each other.

And I wonder why I can no longer sleep, huh?