Utter Shit

eH*rm^ny just matched me with a Farmer/Janitor.  It is like eH*rm^ny does not know me at all….sort of like the time a friend tried to set me up with an adult who plays Dungeons and Dragons.

Really?  Me?  Do I seem the type to farm, clean or pay D&D?  Do I seem the type to want to hang with people who do?  I am gonna go with NO.

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Had a really great morning where I was convinced I was the best realtor ever…only to be smacked down by a STUPID mistake.  I beat the living crap out of myself.  I pondered running away from it all.

Then I begged.  Then I pleaded.  Then I fixed it.  Hero again!  But still not happy that I was not perfect (which should manifest in other ways like a nice case of anorexia instead of this shit).

(Yes…not a PC thing to say…but still, I believe my life would be better if I was a size 4)  (SHIT!  I KNOW it would be better at a 4.  I see girls less smart, less funny, but SKINNY married and having it all – what do I have?  NOTHING.)  End rant.

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Got new topical acne meds (off the antibiotics).  This one comes with 2 vials that you need to mix.  One is terracotta colored and you add a chocolate red to it.  Then you smear on your face.

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I look like I smeared pudding on my face.  WHAT THE FUCK??

There is an option for no color….why oh why did they start me with color?  Give me the NO COLOR first!  Asshats.

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Overall, I am just a little bitter today.  I am tired of working so hard for pennies.  I am tired of all of it.  I am not sure if I need a vacation or a life change.

Maybe just a nap?