Utter Shit

I am sorry to not post.  I think I need a break.  And I HATE when people say that.  But I am even boring MYSELF.  I come here…I start…I yawn…I decide it all makes me sound too pathetic and moronic and I save as a draft and move on.

Now Facebook…THAT is something I can donate some time to!  But even that is all wishful thinking and bullshit.

The truth is….I have become someone I do not like very much right now.  Someone who is home waiting by the phone a little too much….someone who stays up late to be available for the calls that do not come and then misses my workouts….someone who is not working half as hard as they should (bad market, self employed…duh!)…someone with little drive and get up and go.

And last night I gave myself a little pep talk.  THIS is bullshit.  I know that.  And to has to stop now.

Says the girl who is taking tomorrow off…to shop with money she does not have.  Says the girl who will not make plans Saturday because she wants to have the whole day to prep and consult voodoo spells before the second date with the doctahh….IF that will even happen.

UGH!  So.  It stops.  Sunday morning.  For sure.  Back to work.  Back to chasing deals.  Back to getting MY life on track and fuck the rest of it.  Right?

I hope to have interesting (ha!) things to talk about next week.