Utter Shit


Breathless
October 31, 2008, 1:09 pm
Filed under: Being Mere

I am hyperventilating.

I took most of today off to watch bizarre halloween type things on the History Channel and do laundry and try to get my head back into getting jazzed about work.  I was going through my mailing list and creating a schedule for bugging people for referrals and watching something on some sort of chupacabra type animal.

And as most things that happen to me that are good, one thing leads to another and I read something and it reminds me of something else and I look for something online only to find MY LONG LOST PERFUME!!

I currently wear a scent called Wenge.  A pure note from an African tree.  Donna Karen makes it and to my knowledge it is only at Neiman’s.  And I really, really like it.  Almost love it.  I have always been attracted to warmer, spicy, sugary scents over floral or fresh or fruity or citrus.

But I do not adore it like I did my old bottle of Chaos, which has notes of wood and is perfectly spicy.

And right now….Donna has Chaos on her site.  Deep controlled breath and then I freak the fuck out.

I am buying a bottle right now.  And another Wenge for good measure.  And if it gets here and smells like I remember, I will buy 2 more bottles and put them in airtight containers for the future.

I am so happy right now!



8
October 31, 2008, 8:15 am
Filed under: Life in the Burbs

I hate everything about this election.  The state of the union makes our choices so important…but no one can tell exactly what will happen in the near future if either candidate is elected.  My business, my life hinges on consumer confidence.

At this time, I have no idea who I will vote for.  I cannot say I like either candidate.  And I know some people are so pro for one (especially friends of mine, I do know where I live) that they will not like that I say that. But I hate politicians on the whole.  And I hate politics.  I am so middle of the road that I find it all offensive.

And I might skip the whole thing all together (I know, I know) if it wasn’t for the one thing I DO think matters.

Prop 8.

A guy in my office was telling a story about witnessing someone put out Yes on 8 signs every 10-15 feet along a road.  And I was sickened. Really?  Here?  The people who live around here are educated and tend to have professional and executive style jobs.  I have to tell you, with the proximity to San Francisco, I would have expected this area to be a little more open minded.

Anyway…the story ended with someone coming up right behind and picking up the Yes on 8 signs.  And I made a silent cheer.

My own personal belief is that 2 people of the same sex having a “marriage” effects me in no way.  Well, I should not say that.  It effects me in that I get to go to a great reception next month to celebrate the nuptials of two of my favorite people.  But will it effect the way I will get married or any future marriage I might have?  Not in the slightest.   So, I will be checking the NO box.

So….for 8, if nothing else, I am heading to the polls on Tuesday.

I will have some reading to do for the rest of the options.  Thankfully, I have this whole weekend to do any research I want.



Is it ok…
October 29, 2008, 6:09 pm
Filed under: Being Mere

To have 2 artichokes and 2 mini Milky Ways for dinner?

Cuz I just did and I think it rocked my world.



I wish I had enough energy to get the camera
October 29, 2008, 3:01 pm
Filed under: Cats

The cats and I are lounging.  One is curled up next to my right hip.  The other just did that cat thing where they roll into an almost sitting position to clean their belly?

And I held up his fat rolls so he could clean underneath.  Is that weird?  Cuz it made me laugh.



Winner!
October 27, 2008, 6:51 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

Uh…remember when I made a contest?  The only loser is me!  Who can only get 3 people to respond.  ha!

No really.  I just added it up and I have 2754 unread posts on my google reader.  AAACK!  That makes Helen the winner!  I have something to send from ITALY!!!!  I will email you now!



24 hours
October 26, 2008, 10:20 pm
Filed under: vacation

The problem with being awake (and on planes or stuck in airports) for 24 hours is that after the 24th hour you are no longer tired.

I came home, fed the cats, cleaned the fish bowl, started laundry…..and not tired.  AT ALL.  After spending the last 8 hours whining about how my shoulders hurt and how tired I am and I have a cramp in my foot!

2 sleeping pills and tivo.  Who wants to bet I wake up at 4 am starving?



Im outta here!
October 16, 2008, 1:48 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

I made it through the night.  I have been up since 7 am Wednesday.  It is now almost 3 am Thursday.  I feel like ass.  I am pretty sure this was the stupidest idea ever.  I would have done everything different if I had known I was not going out tonight (I mean LAST night….ugh!).  I might have napped.  I might have slept for real.

But I am packed.  I look like hell.  All I need to do is get dressed and get in the damn car!

Buh-bye!!!



Whoo boy!
October 15, 2008, 10:13 pm
Filed under: Being Mere, vacation

Why did I think staying up all night would be fun?  Oh yeah…cuz I was going to go out drinking and that would waste hours!  Only I never heard from anyone….so did not go.

I have cleaned out my DVR.   I have watched Project Runway and America’s Next Top Model and How I met Your Mother and Say Yes to the Dress and Rachel Zoe (2!!).  My house is clean.  Unless I want to start cleaning with a toothbrush.  I am packed except for jumping in the shower in an hour.

And I am bored.  It has been so long since I have stayed up just to watch tv or hang out.  Years.  Since I never have real days off, I really do not stay up for the hell of it.  I either go to bed or go out.  But not sit.

I just feel weird.  I feel like I should be doing something….but there is really nothing to do.  I almost went to the office.  Just cuz.

Hm….I am not tired.  I just do not know what to do.

Ah….pluck my eyebrows!  There we go!



CONTEST!!!!
October 15, 2008, 6:06 pm
Filed under: vacation

I am not even sure I have enough readers for a contest, but FUCK IT.  I AM GOING TO ITALY!!!!!

So….I want you to guess the number of posts I will have on my google reader (total unread) when I return on 10/26….make it 10/27 when I add them all up.

Some hints!  Right now, there are 928 unread posts (busy much?  I usually have no more than 30 or so).  There are 67 blogs on the blog roll.  I am so not happy I just counted those.  I think I need a life.  Oh…right…this week I had a life, hence the backed up posts.

I subscribe to Gawker and Defamer and Perez….and quite a few who only post once in awhile.

I might read a few posts tonight to keep myself entertained, but will not be able to read any while I am away.

Leave a guess in the comments and closest will get a little something from ITALY!!!!!

******

Tonight I am not falling asleep.  Around 1 I am getting in the shower to be at the moms house by 3 am for the car to pick us up.  A mere 18 hours later I will be in Milan and 3 hours after that I should be in Florence.

******

Hm…what else….things have been crazy busy with dinners out and bowling nights and maybe even drinking tonight (not too much though!).  Everything at work is all wrapped up.  I am pretty ready to go.  It is just a hurry up and wait day.  Wait to take a shower before you can fully pack and once the suitcase is downstairs, vacuum and clean up a bit.

Right now, I am working on unpacking….I am bringing too much stuff.  Must purge!!!



Hungover, sad, depressed. Woot!
October 12, 2008, 1:40 pm
Filed under: Barf on a Page, life changes

Ugh.  Sometimes I am crushed by all the bullshit that is in my life.  And it is not my bullshit.  It is the stuff my friends have to deal with that just touches the edges of my life and tires me out.

Yesterday, I drove 2.5 hours to Angels Camp for a wedding.  It was windy and COLD for an outdoor wedding and the staff saw no reason to put us somewhere with a wall or two.  They just did not get it.  It was bizarre.  “We have heat lamps” they said.  Holding my hand less than 6 inches from the flame I could feel no heat due to ice cold wind.  WTF?

The wedding itself was fun.  Dancing, drinking (I had way, way, way too much champagne), stealing a golf cart for a 30 minute romp through the woods, laughs….tears.  Mine.  And not the good wedding sort of tears.

I am at a loss for what to do when your friend, someone you genuinely like, allows her life to implode.  Allows is not the right word.  MAKES THE MOST FUCKED UP CHOICES TO ENSURE HER ENTIRE LIFE WILL BE FUCKED.  And you know?  That is fine.  Be selfish and ruin your life and your reputation.  I don’t care.  But stop taking innocent victims (like your child) with you.  Stop lying to me.  Stop lying to your therapist.  Stop lying to everyone else, too.  Stop.  Just stop.

I am heartbroken.  I am angry that she is this self centered.  I am sad and I fear that I will never trust what she says again.

I am so emotional today.  And I know half of it is fatigue.  And the other half is just being overwhelmed.

Jeezus, I need a nap.