Utter Shit

I never finished college.  It is the one thing I am deeply ashamed of.  Not that I freak out if someone says something about college (I mean shit, I am 34, who talks about college anymore?) but I am always hyper aware that I do not have that degree.  Especially when meeting clients that did a Masters in Microbiology and Law Degree at the same time.  I just would never have that sort dedication.

But what I do have is a semi decent vocabulary.  Very rarely does a word come along that I do not know, and I tend to use twenty-five sent words in conversation….if not here.

I have another client and I am starting to feel bad that he has had to ask me more than once to explain a word.  I am used to being around people that are well educated, white collar, etc.

Last night this kind gentlemen called and asked my opinion on the bailout.

Uh…..

Um…..

Me?

I was flattered that he thought I would have any insight.  I explained what I knew and that I have no real opinion or guess as to how it will effect the local real estate market.  I told him “there is nothing but conjecture out there”.

And he asked me “What?  What did you just say?”  No malice, no emotion, just explain that to me.

I went over what I had said in my head, and tried to re-phrase it.  “All anyone can do is make a guess right now”.

And I would have assumed I mumbled or the phone cut out or he could not hear me….but he has said the same things to me while we are standing face to face….I think I said contentious.  And I feel guilty.  I feel bad for not being able to get my point across more easily to him.

I have no idea where this post is going.  I do not feel like I am better than him, and I hope that is not what is read here.  More of just a “note to self” that I can play smarter than I am.  And another note to self to be more aware of the audience when I am speaking.